I guess you could say I rewarded myself by being a bum all day! At the same time, though, I hated it because the only reason I was doing it was due to Robert being home - a day off. And of course all he did was watch TV and make little comments to me through the day. Most were about basketball and the tournaments and his extreme worry over the Iowa coach's kid who has a thyroid tumor. I wish he'd vocalize worry about OUR children...or even me once in awhile. I keep asking for peace and calm and patience.
I did cleanse and detox with my Genesis Pure; that's a daily, or almost daily thing. Sometimes I forget! But because the day was going the way it was, I figured I needed to do some mental repair as well. I spent a lot of time thinking while I sat in front of my computer.
By the end of the day, I was pretty well grounded and in a good mood. At dinner I said, "You know what I would think would be a great idea? I think since you get paid tomorrow, we should call Lyn and offer to bring pizza over for supper."
This referred back to a critical remark he made to me about how the baby was probably walking by now...not quite..he's just at 6 months! But, we haven't seen the kids since February and it's a crime considering they only live 4 miles away. :(
I spent the evening online talking to my friend Dan about gardening, Genesis Pure, fishing and things we are both interested in. Dan really wants to take our friendship to a whole different level. He had his chance. He wanted to start an intimate relationship which I was willing to do - THEN. But, since he chose to have little incentive to make time for me, I no longer have any desire for him in that way. Too bad. He's the closest thing to Sam Elliott in looks I'll ever have!
So, this is part 1 of today's posting. I'll add part 2 a little later this evening. The dogs have reminded me several times it's time to put food in their dishes!
Namaste'
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