Here I am, sitting at home, somewhat depressed at the moment; no caffeine on board yet this morning.

And, with good reason, I suspect. It's really hard to think of the possibility of being poor again! But, I've never been a quitter, and I'm pretty success driven, so I am going to chart the next 30 days just to see how positive I can keep myself, and with luck will be back on the track of (at least) my own brand of success.

Angel cards...what are they? Well...anyone reading this who knows I'm Pagan will most likely wonder why in the world I'm talking about Angel cards. I'm a huge believer in Beings from the "other side" who are available to help and protect us from ourselves. It's probably a full-time job for several of them in my case! ;)

Angel cards are one of Doreen Virtue's inventions. They're not what I would call a tarot deck, but instead a method of guidance. They are a reminder of the presence of the Divine (in whatever form you believe) in a person's life. I try to pull a card from this deck at least once a day. Whichever card I pull is what I feel I'm supposed to be considering and meditating on till the urge to pull another card hits me.

I don't believe that angels are the feather-winged creatures playing harps and sitting on fluffy clouds that some religions promote. Even angels would get bored with that, I believe. My idea of an angel is actually closer to the angel that John Travolta played in "Michael" - a down to earth, smoking, drinking, sexy and sensual angel who brought out the best in people. He was bawdy and irreverent and at the same time so full of faith and joy. And with that in mind, that's why I use Angel cards. I'm certainly irreverent, have a great potty mouth vocabulary (as well as a fabulous *regular* vocabulary!) I know that sometimes you have to cut corners, sometimes have to be a little underhanded, and sometimes be direct in what you want. But I believe in success, I believe in faith, I believe in joy.

And, I believe in myself. I know that sometimes I get down about things. Some people think I'm putting myself down at times, but I'm actually poking fun at myself when I do it! I'm usually shocked when someone tells me to quit being mean to myself!

So...now that I've blithered on, I've posted the card I pulled today. I'll write more about what's going on today as I have time. And, I'll ask you to be patient with me while I explain what has brought me to this temporary depression of sorts. But now, I'm going to go get myself a cup of green coffee bean mocha and start to elevate the mood for the day.

More later.

Namaste'